I have been attracted to women for as long as I can remember. Even when I was a child, I remember having ‘crushes’ (although back then I didn’t realize what they were) on different women. I’ve never really been attracted to men.
I came out when I was 18, and I would have done so earlier but my family is Southern Baptist, and would have disowned me. Well, they did so anyways. This year they have been more into pulling me back into the family and me being a part of them.
I’ve been with my girlfriend for 3 years, and 6 months ago I cheated on her with a guy. She knew about it the day of, and I was completely honest with her about it. I didn’t want a relationship with the guy, nor the sex, I suppose I was curious since I had never been with a guy. I regret the whole thing totally, and I wish I could take it back.
We agreed to work things out, and things have been better between us. Except the intimacy. She has moved past the incident I mentioned before, and still there is little intimate affection. Sure we cuddle when we go to bed, but not much other than that. And I like to have sex a lot…but it’s like she can go weeks or months without it. I want to be with her but maybe it’s that I don’t feel attractive anymore…I have gained a little bit of weight and I don’t do my hair or makeup anymore. But other people want me……..so I don’t understand.
What do I do???
She hasn't gotten over the incident... no real lesbian wants to follow behind a man.